One day during my last semester of college, my roommate and I should have been studying for an Advanced Nutrition exam on iron & folate. Around 2 o’clock that afternoon we packed up our books and headed towards Barnes & Noble, obviously stopping at Dunkin Donuts on the way to avoid the high prices at the Starbucks cafe. Anyway, after about an hour worth of studying, we got distracted and somehow started talking about astrology, one of our fallback topics that we both love. I’m a Pisces. My birthday is March 16th, I’m great at reading body language, I’m terrified of never getting married, have go-to music for every emotional state, and I may get lost in dreamland every now and then. When “Song About a Pisces” by Jeff Caudill started playing on Kerrigan-Lowdwermilk Pandora I knew I found the title of my next post. I began to think of how people perceive me. After about one minute of reflection on first meetings I determined that people will almost always say one of two things:
1. “Where are you from?! Your accent is so unique.” Well, friends, I grew up in Central New Jersey, where I continue to live at age 22. Apparently I sound like a valley girl teleported to east coast 2014 from ’86 Cali. My Technical Writing professor wrote a comment on the back of my first assignment, which I got an A on by the way, saying “I noticed you speak with a lilt. Feel free to meet with me to prepare for your presentation at the end of the semester.” This was in September and my presentation wasn’t scheduled to happen until November so my anxiety began to skyrocket. After I googled “lilt”, I learned that it means a sing song way of speaking. Now, I didn’t think that was quite so terrible but I guess I sound unintelligent if you hear my voice instead of my words. Oops. I made the effort to control my lilt, which my prof appreciated and got an A on my presentation as well. I don’t make apologies for who I am, but I can take directions and fake my way through most things if I must.
2. “You’re so proper/delicate/dainty/graceful!” I was actually approached by a stranger on vacation asking if I was a ballerina as a child. This is great for my ego, mainly because it falls in line with my dream of one day being a real housewife and raising children who grow up at country clubs and charity galas. Anyway, this point is actually relevant because this is where the title of this post really resonates with me.I don’t like talking about myself, the good things in my life or the bad. I would rather listen to the stories that belong to other people so I can learn and grow as an individual. I also hate seeing the people I love suffering, in true Pisces fashion. I carry their problems as well as my own but most people have no idea what’s actually going on inside my daydream filled head. I fall into Netflix binges or cups of frozen yogurt and then get up the next day and face what the day throws my way, so I like to think I’m not awful at handling stress.
Pisces get a bad wrap for being flippant, emotional, and anxious. Pisces also get deeply involved in the lives of the people who surround them, are fiercely loyal, and can actually very comforting to be around because we feel emotions so strongly. Drunk people love being around me because I tend to stay calm…and play with their hair. We also like to swim like the little fish that represents us to the world, so that’s always fun. People only see what you choose to show them, so carry yourself with grace even when the going gets tough.